Sunday, August 30, 2009
Sorry that I dont blog as often now. I'm shuttling between 2 blog avenues. Hah.
Failed my Math test. Again. Idk what's wrong with me (or my math), but JC math is really hard and it really sucks when you cant keep up with the pace. And it's freaking 37 more days to Promos and I'm still in slack mode. Someone please slap me, or arrange for a study date with me =)
Had dinner with Brandon yesterday. It's nice to be in this side of the country with a friend from another side of the country. Being in the West stinks cos it takes eternity to get back. And its friggin waste time. But amk's good. Its near, its cheap.
Then I spent the whole night doing GP articles for idk what reason. Was too tired after a whole day out to start studying.
Sales video is done and that's a burden off my shoulder. Now its seniors' night. This will never end.
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Monday, August 24, 2009
Something I came across in the train earlier which really struck me. I was reading a previous Daily Bread entry. It made me ponder for a long long while.
Here's how it goes:
When I signed up for a popular Internet social network, I was shocked to be greeted with the words, “You have no friends.” Although I knew it was untrue, I still felt sad for a moment. The idea that anyone, even an impersonal Web site, would call me friendless was upsetting. Friends are essential for our emotional, physical, and spiritual well-being.
Friends listen to our heartaches without blaming us for having problems. They defend us when we’re under attack. They are happy when we succeed and sad when we fail. They give us wise counsel to keep us from making foolish choices. They even risk making us angry for the sake of making us right. My friends have done all of this and more for me.
Perhaps the best-known friendship in the Bible is that of Jonathan and David. Jonathan was heir to the throne of his father Saul. But he knew that the Lord had chosen David for that role, so he risked his own life to save his friend (1 Sam. 20).
As the Bible shows us, we need to choose friends carefully (Prov. 12:26). The very best friends are those who are friends with God and who strengthen our relationship with Him (1 Sam. 23:16). — Julie Ackerman Link
I do not ask for many friends,
But give me, Lord, the few
Whose loyalty and faithfulness
Are first of all to You. —Meadows
True friends are like diamonds—precious and rare.
I thought the second paragraph meant alot to me. It made me think real deep, hard and long. (I know those adjectives sounded erotic, but it's true)
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Life is like a plane.
It takes off, flies high and lands.
Then it takes off again, flies high and it lands.
And it takes off once more, flies high and it lands.
So the cycle continues.
Sometimes, we have technical difficulties before flying.
Other times, we meet with turbulence while flying.
And then there are times when we land, and we crash and burn.
Which part of the flight are you at now?
The turbulence where it would be over soon?
Knowing that there is this glimpse of hope to hold onto.
Knowing that there will be the sun after the rain.
Knowing that when it's all over, you know you've pulled through.
Knowing that when it's all over, you would have reached your destination.
Knowing that everything was but a test of your faith.
Which part of the flight are you at now?
The landing of the plane?
Knowing that soon, you would crash and burn?
Knowing that there is nothing to look forward to.
Knowing that its time to give up.
Knowing that though everything happens for a reason, yours was a miscalculation on God's side.
Hey but wait.
You were not born to be defeated that easily.
You were not born to give up like that.
You were not born to sigh, sigh and give out greater sigh at the pain you're going through.
You were born to live.
You were born to be victorious.
You were born because God knows what's best for you, even if it doesnt seem so now.
Above all, you were born to be more than conquerors. 0 comments
Friday, August 21, 2009
i liked today. it gave me reassurance that there was someone out there who trusts me and someone whom i can rely to trust. Though i spent quite long on the train talking, i think it was allw orthwhile.
Spa was crap. I had different readings from everyone.As usual. Why am i not surprised. it was the same for bio spa too/\. sigh. i really wanted to make the teachers proud by doing well in exams. like mrs ung and mr kwok.mrs ung was so damn sweet singing praises about me during parent teacher dialogue session though my conduct in bio has dropped alot. i really dont want to dissappoint her.oh well. till tmr. 0 comments
Thursday, August 13, 2009
finally managed to create a livejournal. Kindda feel some sense of security there cos theres the privatising of messagesand all. But i dont think I will close this blog down cos it still means alot to me. oh well. 0 comments
Monday, August 10, 2009
maybe. maybe people in ACJC are just full of superficiality. or maybe its only from those coming from single sex schools? remind me never to send my kids in there. 1 comments
Friday, August 07, 2009
samuel, you're just one big pile of rubbish. you're good for nothing, you dont do very well in anything at all, and you always say the wrong thing at the wrong time which pisses people off. i hate you, samuel ang wei rong. get out of my life.
i dont know. i dont know who i've become. i dont know what to do. i dont know what i'm doing. and neither do i know what i've done. i've been screwing pretty much of my life ever since term 3 or something. suddenly, i feel.. alienated. to be honest, the feeling's fading away. that whole enthusiasm for scones thing. i feel i'm drifting apart. and i dont exactly have anyone very close to me that i can relate to in AC like i had in ZH. i just dont feel attached any longer. then the introvertishness comes into play.and break times are spent either running errands for teachers, running errands for students, or running away from my class to go to the council room alone to just relax and listen to some music.
stressed? not very. i've just beeen having one hell of a term. everything sets in and i'm just, overloaded. there's too many things on my mind. so many things to do.so many things to say. but i dont have anyone i can turn to.
i dont need any consoling on my tagboard whatsoever. you can skip that, really. i just really want a good friend whom i can pour things out to. i just really want someone to be there for me.
i think Go'ds telling me smthing. i know he'splanned for me a direction.but i dont know where its going. i feel lonely. its only me, and God and noone else.
trust me, u have no idea how frustrating this feels. you have no idea.
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