12:05 AM
its may 10. and i think this is my 3rd post in 5 hours. reason? i'm lonely and emo. i mean yea, i somehow saw things that i should not have seen, thought of things i should not have think, heard of things i should not have heard.
i seriously think that you, blog, is my only person loft to talk. sometimes i just dont want to disturb or irritate any other people like i've always done. then today i realised, when i do not do so, suddenly everything becomes quiet. i guess most noise, msn convos, smses comes from me then. nvm, shall learn to be an anti social. hahas.
saw that something on my table. which made me think and think, about what of me changed and all. everything's gone. i dont seem to be the samuel i myself used to know. i cried. i need the Lord's blessings. i need his touch once again. i need his guidance. his light to light up my darkness. his accompaniment in times like these when i've no one to turn to. i just need Him. i need you Lord.
sigh. today's sunday and in a metter of time, its church time. hoped to find some serenity in there.
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