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9:30 PM



hey people. actually in the process of blogging abt my trip. but something in me just told me to blog abt something now, so that the burden will be gone. hopefully.

was at amk hub just now. alone. watching movie. fantastic 4. its probably the only show so far where i've watched alone. the feelings "cool". something new. to be alone. just felt wierd.

saw the boys from 2e3 at amk hub so joined them for lunch. had a walk with ivan after that. few questions that i asked. and haha, the answers what i expected. had been thinking about this for so many days, and yea, now at least i noe.

if u do see my hp, the picture on my wallpaper shows my emtions, who i really trust, or at least enjoy being with. but if theres noone on the wallpaper, then im a lonely man. haha. but really, i just thought, how much time and money i've spent, just to realise that though i cherish these people around me, its a one way thing. they dont.

kinndaa pathetic huh? to be in the theatre all alone. and theres noone in ur vicinity cos its a huge theatre with little people. but i guess im bound to that. the people i love dont love me. sigh. what to do? haha

i've never felt like that for a long long time. to feel like there's a thousand kg weight hanging from ur heart. my heart is seriously very heavy now, it can just drop. how i wish i hadnt taken things so seriously, then i probably wouldnt be hurt for the 3rd time.

the best of all is, on fathers day i returned from aussie. and the only greeting i recieved to greet me fathers day was from yvonne. and only my sister. how pathetic can i get. 4 sons and none from them. so much for the time and money. haha. what a waste. arent i just so silly?

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