hey... its been a day of hell for everyone todae.. as in for band members.. and i totally screwed it up.. where shud i begin???
todae yan yu had to go for something.. didnt come for band.. ivan sick.. didnt come for band.. rachel cudnt contact her.. she also nvr come.. first only have me and hanting... hanting also headache.. crudely speaking.. its as good as holding a rifle without bullets... so naturally.. we loss the war and broke down... its like everyone is counting on me.. and i have dissapointed them...
passion... passion.. passion.... the words kip ringing thru my mind.. i've alwaes had this passion for band all this while as far as i tot.. but until todae.. i realized it perhaps isnt passion at all... passion is when one takes every opportunity to practice and make perfect.. instead.. i only come for full attendance... haix.. passion...
its not that i dun want to put in effort.. i've tried... perhaps i wasnt born for it... no point saeing all that now.. i guess wat i can do now is just to practise hard... im just so dissapointed in myself... being in the band since 7.. and now.. i screwed it up.. it was me who nearly cost the band to lose its best conductor, mentor, and guide. screwed up in playing, scewed up in tuning.. and im a primary scool band member.. i dun even tink im fit to be one...
indeed.. mr chew has done alot for us and we realli dissapointed him.. especially me.. im so sorry mr chew.. i'll promise to start practising diligently...