Sunday, February 26, 2006

5:03 PM

yo!!! it's been a long time since i blogged. todae, same things, went to church, went for choir . used my BEAUTIFUL voice to praise the lord. Amen. anywae, sian. that's the word. juz did summary and letter to the editor. boring. after blogging muz go learn geog. wonder y ms lau suddenly sead the test was from chpt 12-17. then 1 paragraph of chpt 18. muz be she saw the paper, no chpt 19-22. cheating.

anywae, tmr's a mondae. wonder y i feel so bored on mondae. i noe. asthetic. i mean this 1 hr is taking my precious time. Singing. Pure singing. haix. wat i like about fridaes too are marching. at times i m not enthu. but last week was diff. the band senoirs took us, not the ncc and we were marching at the study corner there. guess wat??? the old hag came out and shouted something like that: "eh.. ur music veri noisy. wanna challenge me rite??? ok, i play my radio for u all to hear." apperently, she full blast her radio at dunno wat radio station. i was thinking, she's mad. if she full blast her radio, it's even louder than our music as the radio is outside the door. then, we continued marching and everytime we passed by there, we wud mark louder, fun!!! since me and matt were the only guys, lihua got me to mark, and i was real loud.

lolx. anywae, she put up a sign which is a mahjong paper and this is wat she wote: "stop ur music and i'll stop mine." i mean, u cant blame the co or woever was making those noises including makings of other cca as this is scool premises and the noise muz only stop at 11 or so. well, then, lihua gave us a break t see the commotion. then while marching, she brought a mop near the ledge dunno for wat. we tot she wanna throw. then i saed:"she dare to throw the mop, we get mr keong to get the javelins from the pe store and throw at her. get fariha talib to throw shotput. while the rest can throw basketball, soccerball. watever" lolx. so, we particularly enjoyed "marching wif music" haha.

and sry guys if i've offended u on fridae. i am stressed. STRESSED. TOO STRESSED. TIRED OUT. sry zuo xian for screaming at u. i was realli vexed. family, friends, band, literacy evening, class tee, time management, test, the giving out of worksheets.dirty classroom. everything was on my mind then. and dear me, 3 ppl was toking to me at the same time rite aft sccol. one asked: "hey, where the wrksheet??? i muz go liaox. the maths wrk sheet??? the geog notes????" another saed: "samuel, todae still hav lit evening rehearsal??? lit evening audition on nxt nxt mondae. if we dun meet todae, then no more time liaox. wed got sports heat lehx. but now everyone also so tired. got cca.how??? how??? how???" well, to make things worse, another asked : "eh, the class tee how??? when u wanna call the company??? which company u wanna choose??? the colour??? take this design argh??". well, apperantly, i dun hav 3 pair of ears or 3 mouths, nor can i multi task by thinking of so many things at one time. there fore, i bursted and shouted at zuo xian (sry...) as he was kicking the soccer ball in the classroom, toppling over the things around that area aft 1/4 of the class left.this was wat happen.

zuo xian playfully kicking the ball. i was vexed. thinking of the band, coz i hav a schedule for my juniors and apperently, they were far behind from wat i plan. also, i wanna do the class tee asap, thinking of which company to call and when. last, i was mainly thinking of the lit evening rehearsal on wat shud i do. jen lam left me in charge of the rehearsal schedules, and it seems like i am realli dissapointing her. :x

zuo xian toppled some things. i was sweeping the floor.yvonne was there.zuo xian was on duty.jian liang and kai siang was too. but nobody did anything to the classroom. messy it was, and the monitor was to be blamed. everyone left, but the few of us. i was stressed, so i took up the broom and started sweeping. thinking y m i the one always doing all the job. if i did a gd job, i m nvr credited. if i failed to do it, i m to be blamed. y??? monitor. haix. anywae, i was sweeping the floor, dumping all the rubbish i see in the way.

vonne: zuo xian, dun make a mess out of this place already lah. and dun kck the soccer ball here leh. can pick up the thing u toppled over not???
zuo xian: aiyah, nvm one lah.
me(furious coz i was too stressed and doing all the work, therefore screaming in a real loud voice that startled those left in the class): EH!!! DUN KCK THE SOCCER BALL ALREADY LAH. U THERE PLAYING WITH THE SOCCER BALL WHEN TODAE'S UR DUTY!!! AND I M NOT ON DUTY BUT HERE I M SLOGGING MY GUTS OUT TO KEEP THIS DAMN CLASS TIDY AND NEAT!!!

juz then i realized how stressed i m. i continue sweeping the floor and quietly wept while sweeping. too much pressure. weight overload. guess vonne isnt the only one stressed. even me myself can burst out sometimes. howver, most of the time, i appear happy go lucky as i am known as the king of bluffalogy, haha. i always tell myself to PRETEND to be happy, wat's deep down in my heart are all the troubles and sorrows. i guess i shud not hav become the monitor. at least then halve of my worries are gone. anywae, during band, i began to reflect on wat i saed and how i reacted. apperantly, when i tot i wasnt firce enuf, i asked liyan whether i was. she repiled that i was veri fierce. suddenly, i juz shouted, startling the rest in the clss. ian also agree as he saw me hapy-go-lucky durin english but was a thunderstorm aft scool due to the many troubles i hav been wooryying. haix.

if i've offended anyone on fridae aft scool, i m deeply sry.

to my clss: i hope that u will all understand how i feel and pls pls pls lighten my load. i've to mainly worry about the lit evening. i realli wud not like to dissapoint mrs lam. pls understand. then, announcements - i realli hope u all will listen to my announcement once coz i realli feel annoyed and irritated when ppl start coming up to ask again. lastly, i hope u all will keep the class quiet and tidy. the class tee is mainly dealt within the monitor and monitress, thus adding more worries. pls understand.

to my band section: i hope that u will understand how i feel esp my 3 juniors.or rather 2.

hanting, u are too slack. pls buck up and rmb to listen to me b4 u all ask and i realli hope that u will not interrupt wat i am saeing by blowing ur damn trumpet.i reali dun wish too see u slow down the rest and systematically destroy the previous exercises on soe tt i tot u. this wil only allow u too be left bhing and change in seniors. pls understand tt it's not easy to take 2 juniors, much less 3.

ivan, i see the most potential in u. cherish ur seniors. and similarly dun interrupt wat i sae. u r one talented junior as u are theorically good at music. dun disspoint me. and always rmb to tounge. ur accurate sight reading can realli get u far. love ya.son.

dickson, u are a music talent too. but i hope that ur attitude towards music ur seniors wil change. ur seniors complain to me tt u hav ap. well, i wud not agree to tt for i can see tt u r a bright child. k??? the temp change in seniors will allow u to catch up wif the other two guys.

to my other "si bao tai": i deeply thank you for being so close to me when i needed u. sometimes when i m down, juz by ur presence, i m realli glad and happy. thank u for giving me consults and a listening ear when i needed u guys. thanx vonne for sharing wif me ur secrets and at the same time, being a listening ear to my burden. thanx liyan for being my "love consultant" and being thgere for me when i needed u all. thanx xiang for providing us wif a house for the horror movies and such. thanx for being an experienced "love consultant" too. finally, thank u ian for being a listening ear and sharing wif me my burden. thank guys.

to others: thanx yiching for being my "band consultant". i realli appreciate u to be there for me tt dae and i realli thank u.

well, this post is getting nowwhere wif all my thanking and it realli seem like a "last min saeing b4 i die" letter. so here, i gtg. bb!!!

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